You are enough

I’ve always had a rough time with having individual initiative, saying no to every opportunity that I didn’t find a friend to share with. Truth is, it doesn’t have to be like this.

I don’t have a lot of friends and not everyone likes the same I do or wants to go to the same events and that’s okay. However, this meant that I wouldn’t take a lot of opportunities because I didn’t want to go alone.

Last year I decided to change that and take every opportunity I could. I wanted to see what I could learn from it and if it would be worth it in the end. What am I missing?

So, I started going shopping alone and even went to a networking event in London by myself (something I thought to be impossible). Going from store to store by myself was incredible, I felt free and ended up really appreciated my own company. I still have to work on it, as I only go alone if I already am in town and still need someone to go with me if not there. Baby steps, I’ll get there.

As for the networking event, I was supposed to go with a colleague that cancelled 2 weeks before and when I found someone else to go with me it was already too late. Everything happens for a reason and I think this was life’s way to tell me that I needed to do this by myself. The event was in London ( and I was so scared), decided to go 3 hours in advance so I could explore and calm myself. Since it was near Oxford street I went shopping and then went on to the event. It ended up being so educational and I’m so glad I went for it and I even got some Harry Potter goodies from Primark!

I also went to a Christmas party last year, my first one. Nicole 2017 said no but 2018 was a new year and I just figured that if I wasn’t liking it I could just leave and that I had nothing to lose. It was nice to see everyone and I felt good with myself as if this was a milestone I didn’t know I had to cross.

What I learnt from these experiences:

1. You have nothing to lose if you say yes, but you might miss something if you say no.
2. However, don’t be afraid to say no, if you don’t feel comfortable it’s okay you don’t need to feel pressured.
3. I really enjoy my own company. In a weird way I think I’m really funny and enjoy spending time with myself.
4. You are prepared to do it. You just have to go for it.

Bottom line for my discoveries is:

I have myself and I am enough.